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I discovered/stumbledupon a picture of the exact tattoo that I have been planning for myself ever since the last one. 

I feel lost.

I have spent the past two months trying to be a superhero. Everywhere at once. Ohhhh heads up it doesn’t work. It’s all over now though.  I’m back to being just Clark Kent. I always dug his glasses anyway.

I’m at a turning point.  I’ve been stuck thinking that I was going to be one of the few and far between that never change their major throughout college. Now here I am confronted with the opportunity to create a major just for me. For what I want to do..exactly the courses I want to take. I. am. ecstatic. Marine biology, huh.

Last semester I about exploded when I got the chance to handle sea urchins.  Now in my SCUBA class I can’t stop smiling.  Putting the pieces together slowly but surely. I just want to be happy.  I want to make myself happy.

I found a way to do that.

alicebeaguerin:

tonight i:

-ate dinner with my sister and overwhelmed her by introducing her to everyone i love here
-giggled about finding hanukkah gelt on the floor, and then eating it
-played cowboys and indians with jo, mari, and adrienne (thus ending in me running down six flights of stairs to attack adrienne and getting shot with candy-can revolvers, and holding johanna hostage)
-played “never have i ever” with them
-played “fuck yeah” with them
-played that one game where you think of a word starting with the letter of the previous person’s word’s last letter with them
-played that same game, grimy and sexual-themed (what else do you expect?)
-went lounge hopping
-giggled about jared’s lack of sinus infections
-wasted two hours of time in the best possible way with the best possible people

goodnight:)

Is it in human nature to want what you can’t have?  Is that a constant? Is it different if that thing is completely available to be had?

I was curt to someone yesterday and I really wish I hadn’t been. What do you do to reconcile with a person who may or may not like you? When politeness only goes so far.

I’m anticipating a Spring that just won’t come.

I wake up most every day feeling like I know too little.

Baby steps need to go farther.